let's do the analysis!

one day, i desiredly decided to go back home.All are in sudden since that was the only chance to do it cz after that no more holiday for me.

well, everyone in iium kuantan campus has known that public transportation is very difficult even there are many colleges and universities around us in kuantan compared to iium gombak campus. thus, many students who has their own transport got their chance to do a business. "delivery service and rent car service"

Until now, this question is unanswerable and always raise this matter in my mind.

Instead of using a well-known "prebet sapu" in my campus (pak teh), i became more comfortable and feel more secure if my own friend voluntarily to send me to terminal or fetch up me at terminal especially when i arrived at terminal during late midnight.

from this case, i became more familiar with my friends' attitude. hurm.. some are more intolerable, some are very selfish and some are very, very jumud! but undeniable, some are very, very helpful and i'm very very, very appreciate it. :)

let's read what i want to highlight here....

after i bought a ticket which is hard to decide when should i came back to my campus, i'm just thinking of who should i called to fetch me up at terminal since according to ticket i had been bought, i would arrived at terminal at 1.00 am.

this is the second time happened to me.

 i was trying to message some of my friends but some were not response and some had musyaqkah.

but...

there was one of my friend  replied with negative answer to me and i never found out this kind of answer before this.

CASE 1

my friend has a car for using during her studies in iium kuantan campus.

She and her roommates always went out for lunch, dinner and so on.

not always but sometime i realize that they went out together.

and also, does not a matter for  them went out to buy some important things.

even at night, i realize that they went out....celebrate their roommates' birthday...and so on.

just say what they want, they will get soon without problems.

i whispered in my heart, "org ade kereta bleh la nk slalu kuar jln2."

                                       ***********

that's not kind of jealousy but what are the purpose of doing so? is that really important?

compared for those who does not has a car.

sometimes they have to force themselves not to buy something for instance me myself. i really, really like secret recipe but i have to force myself not to buy it until it really, really important. And until now i did not get yet my secret recipe... :( if i want to buy one thing that very important for me, i feel it does not make a sense to go out to buy only one thing!

CASE 2

i send a message to my friend (a same person in case 1), i asked for her help to fetch up me at terminal at 1.00 am. i send a message to her after my friends (other friends) didn't replied my message.

that time, she was the only person that came to my mind.

around after 5 minutes, then she replied, "sorry, k.hawa. my mom have said that she didn't allowed me to go out during mid night.i can't do that since my mom does not allowed me".

huh...my heart was broken after read that sms.

then, i replied, "ok".

she replied to me, "then, how you want to go back? i'm also worried about you".

i didn't replied that sms cz i'm very very sad with that kind of answer she replied to me. i told to my mom immediately until my tears felt down...

sensitive....?? yes, of course.
because if i was her, i didn't reply that way. Not professional at all!
since i don't like that way, then, i wouldn't do the same thing to others.

plz imagine if at that time i'm alone at terminal bus around 1.00 am???
does it secured for a sister for being lonely at midnight at terminal bus???
                 
                                   ***************

so, to all readers plz don't do things that u don't like others do that to you!

i don't like people make burden to me. so,i don't like to make burden to other people.

plz la "matang" in decision making! dh masuk university pn mak yg kne buat sume keputusan utk anda! apa kes....!

i whispered in my heart again, "dasar anak mak...mmg mcm 2.klu mak suh buat bnda x baik pn kne ikut...".

i also asked my friend opinion about these cases.
and she answered like this, "mana lg penting? mak ke Allah?"

i like this kind of opinion! tq my friend :)

does it make a senses my friend?

i'm really unexpected that kind of person is still exist in this campus!

to end of the story, later another friend that i messaged before was replied and she able to fetch up me at terminal around that time...i'm really really appreciated what had she done!

so....
what about you and what your opinion?
let's analyze it! :)

BELAJAR UNTUK TIDAK MERUNGUT

Entri ni dh lapuk and supposedly to be posted a week before final exam...tp disebabkan internet tersangat la slow...x boleh nk post...jadilah dia entri lapuk tp masih berguna lg...

                                  ***********************

Minggu lps adalah minggu yg x dapat nk diungkapkan tahap ketensionan!

Hari isnin baru nk mula buat assgnmt math method yg kena hantr hr khamis. agak sakit hati bila tgh2 buat working yg berjela2 pjg sampai 2-3 page paper tp the last answer was wrong!almost all questions like that! fuh...jenuh nk buat!

Then, proceed plak dgn kelas tahfiz hr khms ptg yg kne kejar muqarrar cz exm is around the corner.

Hr jumaat plak, br nk strt bkk buku marketing principle utk mid term keesokan pg dan ptg esoknya (sabtu), ade presentation marketing principle. Means that, mid term n presentation on the same day. Preparation utk presentation not done yet at all.

Hr isnin plak ade lg satu mid term and big quiz. Fikiran ni sgt2 la runsing.Hari ahad belum tentu sy dpt abeskan stdy utk both mid term n quiz ni..tp sy belajar utk tenang n relax. Mmg ssh utk tenangkn perasaan. Apatah lg bila kte dlm keadaan stress yg teramat. Astaghfirullah...!

Sy teringat apabila shbt sy bertanya;

“Kak hawa,mcm mne ek akk boleh tenang je bila exm atau quiz pdhal sy tgk akk lg busy dgn program drpd sy tp bila exam n quiz tgk akk relax je...”

Mmg sy nmpk cool je ble nk exm. Abes stdy ke...x abes stdy ke...mmg nmpk cool je

sy tersenyum mendengar pertanyaan yg sebegitu diajukan krn belum pernah org tnya sy soalan ni. tp sbnrnye, hati ni berdebar2 sgt. Nmpknye mmg air muka sy dpt menipu sume org.pelakon terbaaik!!!

Jawapan sy hanyalah, “jgn merungut”. Just a simple thing but complex to be done!

Tp air muka sy x dpt disembunyikan when my level of tension was increasing tremendously last week!

Biasa la kehidupan seorang student degree mmg byk assignments, quizzes and exmss. Belum masuk lg hal2 yg berkaitan dgn society. Meeting aja memanjang (bg mereka yg komit dgn society la). Nasib baik la course sy ni x memerlukan practical or clinical or posting, etc. Kalau  x, lg la bz.

Kebiasaannya, apabila kami diberi assignment yg byk oleh lecturer yg berlainan yg berbagai bentuk assignment (presentation, search,etc), mostly people will say, “banyaknya assignment yg nk kne buat...”

Apabila lecturer kata, “ok, next week quiz...”

Mostly, people will say, “haaahhh....quiz....???”

Ni belum lg yg pop quiz, quiz yg mengejut! Nk atau x nak, kne terima hakikat hr ni quiz. Sume jd blank bila nk jwb. Apa lagi, fill in the blank la jwbnya.haha.

Apabila ade 2 subject yg exm pd hr yg sama, normally, student will say, “Dr. Kte tukar exm hari lain bleh x cz kteorg ade exm lain hr 2....”

Tp ade je student yg lebih dahsyat komitment mereka. Dah la jd president, tp bila exm, quiz, asgnment, mereka x kalut mcm org2 yg sy sebutkan di atas. X merungut mcm mereka...

Mungkin ada yg berpendapat, “ala...bolehla...dyorg dh biasa...”

Abes, kte yg x biasa ni x leh buat ke? Mereka pun mula2 x biasa juga macam kita.

Kdg2 sy terfikir yg kte ni x kuat dan x tahan dgn cabaran...include me also. That’s why, ada di antara kita yg terlalu jumud dgn status seorang student.

Seorang student, x bermakna dunianya hnya di meja belajar... x bermakna dgn pointer 4.0 flat...x bermakna hanya lulus setiap sem...

But...student should beyond than that.

mybe dia lulus atau dpt dean’s list tp meniru dlm exm...dia terlalu focus dgn stdy smpi melewat2kan solat...stay up utk stdy smpi terlajak subuh...mampu stay up smpi 3-5 pg tp qiamulail x mampu...dll

Byk kali sy mendengar rungutan yg dikeluarkan oleh rakan2 sekelas sy. Kdg2 sy pn termasuk juga org yg merungut bila terlalu byk krj yg perlu disiapkan dan kdg2 juga sy rimas dgn rungutan org.

Kte x ambil sbg cabaran utk diri kita. Kte x pernah buat benchmarking n comparison dgn org lain. Kdg2 tension gak bila dgr rungutan org ni. Biasanya, org yg merungut ni x lihat org yg lebih hebat dr die dan org yg lg krg bernasib baik darinya.

Kalau mcm ni la sikap student skrg, alamatnya, susah utk melahirkan pelajar yg multi-tasking.

Tp kte kne sedar, nk atau x nk kte kne terima hakikat yg kte seorg pelajar. Seorg pelajar haruslah belajar. Belajar dr pelbagai segi...klu tidak, apa makna kita bersusah payah masuk universiti atau kolej dgn membuat pinjaman yg belum tentu dpt abes byr even dh dpt kerja...right?

fikir-fikirkan dan renung-renungkan~

buat sahabat2 MRC sekalian...

Alhamdulillah....
selesai sudah final exam yg sungguh memenatkan lagi perit.
tidak pernah dpt timetable yg sebegitu rupa.

IIUM final exm period : 30 march 2011 until 16 april 2011

MY TIMETABLE:
1 April - Mathematical Analysis (9 am)
2 April - Marketing Princpile (9 am)
3 April - Introduction To Statistic (9 am)
7 April - Mathematical Method (9 am)
8 April - Philosophy of Science (3 pm)
9 April - Organizational Behavior (2.30 pm)

-end of examination for this sem-

syukur,walaupun rasa macam x puas menjawab exm tp saya dh berusaha dan lakukan yg terbaik.
hanya tawakkal dan doa yang mampu diiringi.

walaupun saya rasa jadual exam kali ni sungguh dahsyat tp rmai lg classmate sy yg lebih dahsyat.
mana tidaknya, ada antara mereka yg 5 paper berturut2 selama 5 hari.
dan ada pula yg 6 paper dlm masa 4 hari....! (huh...ni betul2 parah ni...)
bersyukurlah sesungguhnya ada yg lg kurg bernasib baik.

di tgh2 musim peperiksaan pula, kami shbt2 MRC diuji oleh komitmen dan amanah.
suatu isu telah dibangkitkan oleh pihak pentadbiran secara tiba2.

mmg sgt2 tidak kami jangkakan...iaitu "EVACUATION ISSUE".
disebabkan hal ini,penulisan blog saya tergendala buat seketika.

pelbagai kritikan yg kami terima di dalam facebook.
arahan yg dikeluarkan oleh pihak pentadbiran tp kami yg menjadi mangsa chy laser mulut mereka2 yg tiada hati dan perasaan.

kami dituduh secara melulu yg mengatakan kami tidak menjalankan tugas!
ada pula yg mengatakan kami ni bersifat "defensive" sering mempertahankan pihak pentadbiran.

sy sendiri berasa sakit apabila berhadapan dgn shbt2 yg juga turut menyalahi MRC.
evakuasi mmglah perkara ganjil dilaksanakan di IIUM kuantan krn inilah kali pertama ia dilaksanakan di mana baru satu semester kami dilantik menjadi MRC secara sah.

mungkin mereka tidak perasan yg kami bekerja menyelesaikan isu ini bersama pihak pentadbiran walaupun musim peperiksaan.

sehinggkan, mlm hari sebelum exm, sy dipanggil utk menghadiri meeting bersama pihak SRC.

sy diserbu rasa berbelah bahagi dan serba salah jika tidak hadir ke meeting tersebut walaupun beberapa bab masih berbaki utk dibaca.

tambahan pula, pihak SRC sendiri sudah bertungkus lumus sedangkan mereka juga seorang student yg menduduki peperiksaan seperti kami.

mmg tidak dinafikan secara peribadi,sy mmg tidak bersetuju dgn evakuasi ini tetapi ia melibatkan kepentingan utk IIUM community sendiri.

berfikirlah secara rasional utk kepentinagn sejagat bukan utk kepentingan diri sendiri.

sehinggakan ada yg membuat "illegal pertition" utk membantah evakuasi ini.
sy tidak rasakan ia satu isu yg besar until to that extent they have done.

sedangkan ada lagi isu dan masalah berbangkit di luar sana contohnya isu "rare earth" yg bakal dilaksanakan di Gebeng,Kuantan yg memerlukan bukan shj pertition tp lebih dari itu.

STOP LYNAS!!

apa2 pun,sy sgt2 berterima kasih kpd shbt2 yg sering memberi semangat kpd MRC dan SRC yg tidak putus2 mempertahankan kami.

mungkin isu ini merupakan satu nikmat buat MRC dan SRC. Allah sedang menguji kami.mungkin juga Allah ingin memberi peringatan buat kami yg sering lalai utk memperbaiki kelemahan kami. Alhamdulillah...kami hanya mampu bersabar dlm menempuhi dugaan ini.

isu ini juga telah menyedarkan sy bhw seorg pemimpin itu merupakan seorang hamba kpd org bawahannya bukannya seorang tuan.

"semakin sayang Allah kpd kita, semakin duji iman kita kpdNya. Namun dirawatNya dgn sebaik2 penawar iaitu ketenangan pd hati. Allah tahu dirimu yang slayaknya memikul beban amanah dan ujian itu.bykkn bersabar dgn apa yg berlaku. I'm always support you... :)"
inilah kata2 semangat yg saya terima drpd salah seorg shbt sy.

wahai shbt2 seperjuangan MRC sekalian....
sedarlah... anda hanya seorg kuli a.k.a. hamba kpd org bawahan anda!
jawatan bukanlah suatu yg menjadi kebanggaan tetapi ia merupakan suatu amanah yg akan dipersoalkan di akhirat nnt.
bukan soalan exam yg menjadi persoalan...
bukan pointer rendah yg akan dipersoalkan...
tp persoalan sejauh manakah kamu menjalankan tanggungjawab???
adakah secara sambil lewa?
adakah dgn mengikut kepentingan kamu sendiri?
adakah anda mendengar suara2 org bawahan anda?
adakah anda berlaku adil terhadap org bawahan anda?

igt shbt2 sekalian...
kebarangakalian seorang pemimpin utk ke neraka menerima azab Allah itu sgt tinggi.

oleh itu, sy menyeru shbt2 dan diri sy sendiri utk sama2 memperbaiki kepimpinan kita!
siiru a'la barakatillah...