miserable day

Thursday, 16 June, 2011,

3.04 am,

Sultan Haji Ahmad Shah Mosque (IIUM Gombak).

Alhamdulillah.... praise to Allah because give me a chance to be alive on the earth until today.

 Just now, I’ve congregational “solat sunat gerhana bulan” at 1.30am.

This is my 1^st experience gerhana bulan prayer and i gain some knowledge how to pray this solat.

Oooo...cmni rpenye solat gerhana bulan since i never pray this solat before this.

I make a time to have tahajud prayer as well as hajat prayer.

Just rethinking what was happened yesterday.

Yesterday was my miserable day.

Some things happened to me. I don’t know how to express my feeling into words.

But, what i would like to say is, Alhamdulillah infinitely.

Lastly, my tears going down after asking help to Allah for hundredth time.

Oh my Lord, please forgive me and people who always make my heart broken down and please help my friends who always be aside me during my unbreakable time and also those who always prayed for my success in dunya wal akhirah. Ya Allah, please throw away the bad feeling inside my heart to that particular person. Ameen....

Man always not perfect but i’m trying to be a perfect muslim and professional.

Ignore my emotion while dealing all sorts of things that i don’t like most.

Patience is the main key. Quoted from ustaz hasrizal (saifulislam), “erti hidup pada memberi”.

Means, whatever other people want to do a bad thing to you, let them be. We should ignore that thing seem like it doesn’t happen to you.

Yes, we have to understand people. We have to understand and accept other people’s weaknesses. Then, our human relationship will be fine.

I remembered one of my friend during Finishing School Programme (FSP) said, “sumenye terpulang pada kita sama ada boleh terima ke x kelemahan org lain”.

Who else should I asked except Allah. Him the only one I comply with. Him whom created this world without any transaction of money, without any cash flows of money. I’m only the servant of Allah can’t control what He was planned in luh mahfuz.

“Because we shall test you with something with fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who patiently preserve”.

“Dan sungguh akan Kami berikan cobaan kepadamu, dengan sedikit ketakutan, kelaparan, kekurangan harta, jiwa dan buah-buahan. Dan berikanlah berita gembira kepada orang-orang yang sabar”

 (al-baqarah: 155)

“Nor strain thine eyes in longing for the things We have given for enjoyment to parties of them, the splendour of the life of this world, through which We test them: but the provision of thy Lord is better and more enduring”.

“Dan janganlah kamu tujukan kedua matamu kepada apa yang telah Kami berikan kepada golongan-golongan dari mereka, sebagai bunga kehidupan dunia untuk Kami cobai mereka dengannya. Dan karunia Tuhan kamu adalah lebih baik dan lebih kekal.”

(taha: 131)

I know, I have been tested by Him.

One of my friends has been called by Allah to see Him earlier before us. Al-Fatihah for Adhameruddin who passed away yesterday because of drown in sungai lembing. The bad news I got from Alan after my Strategic Management class.

My ustaz said that, “Alhamdulillah, ‘ala kulli hal....”

Thank you to Allah for everything whether it is bad or good. J

Let bygone be bygone and we who still alive here, have to continue our life as khalifah of Allah by obeying the shariah.

Death is part of our long lasting life and it is part of reminder for us to get ready and do all preparations for hereafter.